Like going out without a key, forgetting to put on underwear, or putting two sugars in your cup of tea!! Something feels weird.
I have a weird feeling on Day 5, like something is amiss somewhere. I can’t put my finger on it! I feel out of sorts, and just generally not myself. I need some time, or space, to reconbobulate.
Lockdown is tough for an introvert, who needs time alone to recharge. The truly calm moments happen in the dead of night, which is why I stay up so late! It’s hard to manage, to be honest. Although, it’s very easy to then stay in my PJs for longer than usual!
The dead of night brings calm, and also temptations to spend!
This late night activity brings with it, other bad habits. Looking through Pinterest at crafts, Instagram at stories and new accounts, and shopping for little craft bits and bobs that I ‘want’!
This challenge gets harder by Day 5. The excitement has worn off a bit, and I am irrationally annoyed at Jim! I decide to go back though my notes, and remember why I started ‘The Jarmusch’. It helps get my head back in the right place!!
Who would think The Great British Sewing Bee would present so many challenges??
In the evening I watch the 1st episode of The Great British Sewing Bee (very behind). I love this show. It’s creative, cute, and just lovely and positive. One of the dresses is lovely, I really want to buy the pattern, and some material. And the dress has pockets!!
During my quiet time after midnight, I look through websites for the pattern and material. I find it (last one left), and some awesome Limone Material from Sew Me Sunshine (click link opens new web page).
Happy I have found the things I want, I realise I am unable to buy the beautiful things. I rationalise the purchase for a while, and am really pissed off. It breaks my self imposed rules!
Point 1 of The Rules of Jim state: No Spending on Hobbies!
I literally have no one else to blame at this point. Radiohead were spot on when they said: "You do it to yourself, you do, and that's what really hurts!" The thing is, I have a couple of patterns already, and have bought material and thread, which I haven't started to make yet. A back log of projects, even, So why do I want it so fucking badly?
The short-term why is I want to capture the happiness feeling, a weird sense of purpose making the dress, and give reason to serious sleep issues. The longer term why, I am going to have to carry with me, and ponder for a few days. Day 5 has triggered the lockdown blues.
The day ends as it began.